Yesterday was weird…
I felt like so much garbage and then I didn’t and then I did again.
After work I saw a friend. Got some food and drank a lot of wine. I didn’t get to bed until 2:00am. My brain feels fuzzy and it’s hard to keep my eyes open.
BUT I made it thru yesterday. I’m ok I suppose. I’m not great but I’m ok.
Yesterday was hard because my divorce papers came thru. I had to sign them. I printed them in the morning and just stared at them for at least 6 hours. Not being able to go forward and not being able to go back. I talked to my ex as well. It was good and bad. Strangely enough, he gave me the courage to finally send them to the lawyer. I know that sounds fucked up because it totally is.
Sunday marks the one year anniversary of my miscarriage. That will be hard too. I’m already not looking forward to it. In fact, this entire month is gonna be bad.
Anyway, today is not yesterday. Tomorrow will not be today. I can get thru this.